So something happen to me today, and I'm going to have trouble describing it.

I was sitting in McDonalds with Jeff Parker's brother Colin, he's my friends too. I'm we talk as we eat, I ask him when he's getting married, he asks me about school. I finished eating. then he says "Alyssa _____ got married yesterday" but I don't understand what he's saying, I think maybe I just hear him wrong and ask him to repeat himself, he says it again "Alyssa ___ got married yesterday" and I just stare at him I can't make out the words, he says it again "Alyssa ____ got married yesterday" I feel like I'm drowning like I'm struggling  to find the surface but disoriented by the words, he suddenly says "spike" and I put together that the first 2 words is the name of a person I went to camp with, and I was like "what about her" and he was like "she got married" and I was like "oh that's nice, when?" and he was like "yesterday" and I was like "oh... so that's what you were saying"

So let this not be confused with some overflow of emotion resulting in the disbelief of Colin's statement, actually it was quite the opposite, I think in that couple of minutes I wasn't sure if I was alive, not even sure what alive meant and not even sure that I cared either. But again I didn't feel unsure, I just didn't feel.